i thought i had gotten over this by now
Every year after I moved out of my dad’s year he has forgotten my birthday. I was his only kid. Every year this pissed me off. You can’t remember your ONLY CHILD and ONLY LIVING RELATIVE’s birthday? He just didn’t find it important. A few years ago I started to not care anymore. Sort of. I guess I still cared, but I figured one year maybe he’d accidentally get it right and I should give up hoping for it.
Which is why today I bawled when I realized that my dad would never forget my birthday again.
I realized it would take a long time to feel better about my dad dying because I loved a lot of things about him; I never realized that the shitty things would also continue to make me feel bad.
Really,

